sitting here thinking of that damn notebook, i want to write but, cant, i just cant.....thats how fucking lame  i am.....its killing me this pain inside.......all this shit in my head..... im so confused......thats why it hurts so much, i dont do well with confusion, or other peoples feelings...poor ryan, poor poor ryan....

   grandama didnt know that we were back together so i told her lastnight, and she got uber pissy...she told me that i have to break up with him.. its lame...but i kind of feel good about her wanting me to keep away from him....cuz now i dont really have to be the bad person...she is.... sometimes i think that i care too much for others feelings and not enough about my own....

  im tired i want to nap... later hater..

xoxo

Current mood: worried.....where art thou shawnanana
first boyfriend/girlfriend: michael sclueter                                                         

first screen name: daddyslittledefect420

first kiss: alex
first piercings: ears.

first crush: alex

first music: spice girls

first car:  not yet

first stuffed animal: littlefoot from land before time...i sleep with him....still.

9 lasts:

last cigarette: this morning

last alchoholic beverage: jack daniels. tuesday night

last kiss: lastnight

last movie seen: jarasic park
last phone call: stasha

last cd played:  atticus v.1

last bubble bath: thursday after school
last time you cried: when wheels left for college, i shed a few tears but nothing major

last date: umm? lastnight???

8 have you evers:

have you ever dated one of your best friends: yes

have you ever skinny dipped: you betcha *wink wink*

have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: no idont think so

have you ever fallen in love: twice. once was a mistake </3

have you ever lost someone you loved: yes

have you ever been depressed: is this an emo related question *looks for emo children*

have you ever woken up and not known where you were: no

7 places you've been to:

1.  mall

2. TOMS

3. home

4. school;

2 b continued

JAPANESE COSPLAY <3

other things

Currently Listening Macabre By Dir En Grey see related

I EFFING LOVE THE SPICE GIRLS! </3